Music premiere chava mirel takes benign fibrous histiocytoma soft tissue on alice in chains on her new album south seattle emerald

I already had most of the songs selected when I benign fibrous histiocytoma soft tissue read a post from my friend evan flory-barnes extolling the virtues of the song, “would?” it was always my favorite alice in chains song and benign fibrous histiocytoma soft tissue a huge influence on me during an impressionable time in benign fibrous histiocytoma soft tissue my youth. At the moment of this recording it completely resonated with benign fibrous histiocytoma soft tissue my anguish. Although it was a departure from the format of jazz benign fibrous histiocytoma soft tissue standards that I used for the rest of the album, thematically it was the perfect climax to the arc of benign fibrous histiocytoma soft tissue the story I was telling.

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CM: I spent years struggling with this internal conflict that I benign fibrous histiocytoma soft tissue tried to process through music, between the expectations of our dualistic capitalist society and my benign fibrous histiocytoma soft tissue authentic truth. As a natural people pleaser, I was easily swayed by external pressures. So there was a constant disconnect of trying to fulfill benign fibrous histiocytoma soft tissue cultural expectations until the self-betrayal got almost lethal. The act of finally pulling myself out of the cycle benign fibrous histiocytoma soft tissue and reconnecting with my values strengthened and renewed my sense benign fibrous histiocytoma soft tissue of inner purpose. This album tells that story, with “would?” portraying the soul-crushing torture of self-betrayal.

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So much of the destructive and limiting messages came to benign fibrous histiocytoma soft tissue me through songs — “romantic” fantasy set to music. The narratives are very seductive but unfortunately can be hierarchical, gender-binary, rape-culture-promoting, and otherwise unsafe. In my life it manifested as a misperception that I benign fibrous histiocytoma soft tissue had less worth as a musician and needed men to benign fibrous histiocytoma soft tissue endorse or validate my work, and in a disempowering relationship with my own sexuality. The fact that the messages were conveyed with such powerful benign fibrous histiocytoma soft tissue soundtracks made them particularly potent for me and is the benign fibrous histiocytoma soft tissue reason I felt the need to use music to counteract benign fibrous histiocytoma soft tissue them.

One of the most important dynamics in the making of benign fibrous histiocytoma soft tissue this album was the collaboration with my colleagues eric verlinde benign fibrous histiocytoma soft tissue (piano) and thomas marriott (trumpet and flugelhorn). Their support and embracing of the concept was crucial to benign fibrous histiocytoma soft tissue my ability to be vulnerable enough to record these songs. The instrumentation was extremely exposed, completely improvised, and required full wholehearted buy in. I’m so grateful to have these wholesome collaborators and allies benign fibrous histiocytoma soft tissue on the album with me. My intention in putting this album together was for my benign fibrous histiocytoma soft tissue own transformation and healing, and to inspire transformation and healing in others.

CM: one of my favorite musical memories happens regularly — playing gigs with my 6-year-old son on drums. We play a lot of assisted living and nursing home benign fibrous histiocytoma soft tissue gigs, which is also how I got my start as a benign fibrous histiocytoma soft tissue young performer growing up in seattle in the ’70s and ’80s. We love playing for those sweet audiences — they really appreciate the music, they know all the lyrics and they never look at benign fibrous histiocytoma soft tissue their phones during the performance. I’ve been playing at the kline galland home in seward benign fibrous histiocytoma soft tissue park for 42 years, since I was one year old. It’s such a thrill to pass that tradition and experience benign fibrous histiocytoma soft tissue on to my own child.

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